PS July 16th

Can you believe I've already been out for what 7 months?! I can't, I still feel like a greenie in the land, but turns out I'm now in the middle of my mission. I trying really hard to make sure I keep progressing and don't plataue...not going to lie sometimes it's a struggle. But I figure if I'm struggling then at least something is happening right? '

Today my companion asked what I would do if I was given a billion dollars and had to spend it all in one day. After paying tithing my first course of action would be to buy you a private jet plane with a pilot and enough gasoline to last a life-time so you can fly whenever you want to California to be with Melanie. Helelaas...someone has yet to give me a billion dollars...still waiting...But you are definitely right about the Plan of Happiness, it is definitely for us now. Sometimes as a missionary I don't feel like anything I do is really all that significant for anyone else.I feel like rather than bring other's closer to Christ, I'm the one learning and growing the most. I feel a bit selfish sometimes/frustrated because I came on a mission for others, not myself. But I know that as long as I can give an honest accounting to the Lord at the end of the day that I've done my best to serve His children then my efforts are wasted on myself. I really like that verse you shared with me in Genesis 18:14, "Is any thing too ^ahardfor the Lord? At the time appointed I will return unto thee, according to the ^btime of life, and Sarah shall have a son." I especially like the verse a few chapters later when Sarah reacts to the Lord's timing, "And Sarah said, God hath made me to ^alaugh, so that all that hear will laugh with me." Even though life doesn't go how we plan, I am grateful for the Plan of Happiness and that even though we have hard times, we can still laugh now. I love you Mom!! Thank you for your spiritual insights, I learn so much from your example each week.

Love, your Becca Lou